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Name: Brian Lee
D.O.B.: November 14th 1995
Alias: Too many to be listed
School: Dunearn Secondary, 3Emerald(2010)
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Monday, September 7, 2009
Suddenly turned very emo after I had my dinner. Can't help thinking about him. He is my deceased uncle whom I lived with since young. And also his spouse, which is my aunt.

In case you all do not know, my parents used to worked alot and hence I was placed in care of my mother's 2nd sister, which is my aunt. I wanted to seriously pay tribute to her as yesterday I visited her, she somewhat looked pitiful and Kelvin, my cousin, withdrew from a contract and hence was fined $10K. Even Felicia, my other cousin, declined a marriage proposal from Brian(not me).

I explored the whole afternoon and morning around Circuit Road and Merpati Road, thinking of those time when I was young, giving her problems. And my aunt really lived a sad life. My uncle was somewhat controversial because he drinks alot and when he is drunk, he resorted to violence... it has been hard on my aunt.

However, everyone has a good and positive side. My uncle made me inspire to take up the studies of the Street Directory. I remember when I was 5, I was sitting on his lap where he was driving his delivery van to Serangoon Gardens for supper. He really loved me. And of course I wasn't the only one being babysit-ed by my aunt, Sarah was also in her care.

Somehow, my uncle showered more love on me than her. I will always console S. once she is being scolded/reprimanded by my uncle. That's where it all began.

After I graduated from Kindergarten, before I register for MacPherson Primary, my parents decided to take care of me instead and so was S. parents. When S. and I left my aunt, she cried as she really treated us like her own children. I can sense the pain and compassion from her till now. At my own mother's care, at that time, I did not feel much love from her, I felt really uneasy. I thought at that time "What if Aunt was being bullied by Uncle again?"

Normally me and S. will be the source of comfort for aunt should that situation arise, but we aren't there for her anymore. 3 years after we were being seperated, my uncle suddenly passed away due to complications from drinking. I cried the whole day at the wake. Seeing him in the coffin, motionless, my heart really ache as he is no doubt caring but only if he would change his drinking habit....

When he was cremated at Mount Vernon, my aunt cried really bitterly although uncle was mean to her, she still love him very much. If anyone had been to Mount Vernon, its unlike Mandai where you can't really feel the heat and pain, at Mount Vernon, right in front of your very eyes, there are 2 undertakers wheeling the casket into the big big fire and whoosh...

At that very night, we went to collect the ashes... one tall and lanky male adult was reduced to powder and bones. The people there then sort of  'crush' the bones into lots of ash and it was then placed at Senja. I visit him everytime I have a meeting at the Senja Soka Centre.

I am crying as I am posting... it really breaks my heart. I know we all have to face the chain of Birth, Old-Age, Sickness and Death. I know people around me are going to leave one by one... but I will treat that as them having a holiday on Earth but their Visa expired and is expected to return to 'somewhere'. It helps reduces the pain.

Having to live in this world is a torture... we will feel the pain and sufferings, only if we could all break the chain and attain Nirvana.... Sorry for this sad post, just thought that typing it all out can relief myself much better

Posted at:12:11 AM

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